Performing live: pride, happy, nervous and blank

Live performance. My first live performance in front of 1000 people. Performed as Chinese drummer in Chinese new year ceremony. I am member of Chinese Drum club at NTU. Being a student of new musical-physical art I.e. Chinese drum.

Indeed it is difficult to learn new things. But this is surely an enjoyable journey. You create something soothing, astounding,  miraculous, easy to view but difficult to do/ create, beautiful, curvey, sexy, heavenly etc.

Last but not the least you may earn your bread with your art, once you are good at it.

Say NO !

Would you like to have an HIV virus?( In some other way, let's have unprotected sex sweetheart, unknown person offering this to you.) 

This may seem to be unrealistic, highly exaggerated sarcastic example. Its often observed we are forced to do things which we don't want to do. Your first can of alcohol or first cigarette or anything you never thought will dominate your livelihood. These are some of the examples of the situations where you wanted to say no, but you couldn't and then that scruple moment take its toll on you for many years thereafter.   

Particularly I liked the film 'Yes Man'. The character portrayed by Jim Carry is pale, sullen and alienated from all friends, family and his love. And one motto, one ritual proteges him to the bountiful of experiences, adventures and his altruistic behavior. The one motto was say YES to everything that comes to you. This ritual can turn out to be a camera that captures picturesque of ecstasies. Though saying yes helps it is impossible to generalize and quote that it will help every one. Every individual has his own identity, his own way of living and importantly specific solution for his problems, the solution in no way similar to solution for anyone else. 

Consider a person who has diversified experiences, which means he has already said yes to enormous number of opportunities. He is not in need of any ritual to open up. But this ritual may serve as catalyst for someone.

Even if this is the case we often end up in situations, where we wanted to say NO but to save money, time, relationships we said YES. And then we regret that decision while talking to either self or others. So here my solution is why not say whatever one want to say in the first place. Because if you gonna regret some decision(which you know in advance) then common sense says you should go the other way. For example you helped a stranger( lets say you lend some money), after that you feel 'should I ask for money or he/she will give by herself?' In such event this confusion scratches your head and the other party is sleeping sound. So instead of crouching your head ask and close the file.

In such situations our mind forces us to think what others would think if you do this or that. Primary function of your mind should be think what you will think not others. There are innumerable examples of this kind of behavior, I would mention just one more. Recently I read an article by psychiatrist, he mentioned one of her patient continuously thought about others and she was so frustrated that she didn't keen on continuing life with thinking for others, rather thinking of suicide. 

In case of hesitation confront your hesitation and do whatever you want to or don't want to do!